Ditching the Disappointment

Most of the disappointment we face in our lives we bring upon ourselves unintentionally. We either expect too much from ourselves or other people. When we or they fail to deliver up to our predetermined standards, we are devastated. This is a daily struggle for me. One of my greatest fears in life has been disappointing the people I love, and complete strangers for that matter. And in my eyes I have disappointed them, over and over in some instances. Then I just try harder and it becomes a vicious cycle. I believe that I can find a way to please everyone, when in reality I can't. Which is another disappointment. So many of the things I have learned to do, so many of my Jane of all Trades personality comes from my desire to please and overcompensate. I'm the first to offer my hand, my heart, and my desire to please. This is one of my burdens that I am having to hand over to my savior. It's a heavy one so it is coming at the cost of many tears and years of hard wired habits that I am going to have to rewire with his help. Feeling like a disappointment is not an easy burden to let go of, it sinks its hooks in nice and tight to every dark nook and cranny it can find. For my savior offers me so much light and hope in his words, that in taking his hand and letting him take my burden I am lightened of my load. In his eyes I am not a disappointment, for he knows my heart. When we are weak he is our strength, when we are stumbling he is our rock, he wipes the tears and replaces the dark with light. He forgives with his graciousness and opens our eyes to a better life. His words guide us and provide us with a firm foundation to build upon. He is my God, my best friend, and everyday he cleanses my soul and helps me let go of the pain and make room for more happiness. I shall no longer serve to please man, only to please my God.